Haven't blogged in a while....

Well....finished my first round of clomid on cd7 and man it was NOT fun. When the dr. warned of  "bloating and mood swings" she was NOT kidding!!!!!!  Mood swings is an understatement....it's more like an emotional earthquake!!! lol   Anyways.....so after taking the medicine and timed baby dancing....now I am on cd17...so in the midst of the dreaded two week wait. Guess time will tell. I don't think the wait will end with a BFP on the HPT....but who knows...  Tuesday I go in for a blood draw for the dr. to check my progesterone level...to make sure 1. I'm ovulating and 2. if I'm ovulating strong enough.  If so, yay. If not...then the dosage of clomid will be increased and man I don't even wanna think about the side effects of an even stronger doseage!

Trying to hold it all together....another friend is preggo...and while I am SUPER happy for her it just makes a part of me so envious.  Then I have the regular bombardment of "when are y'all gonna pop one out" or "why haven't y'all had a baby yet"?????  Most days I just smile and say it's all up to God if we have a baby...but some days I just want to stab the person in the eye with a pencil.... lol   Mean..yeah I know...but come on people....it may be super easy for some out there...but for others it is a heartwrenching, emotionally trying, at times devastating effort that doesn't always end with the big 'pay off'.  I just wish people took the time to learn to be more sensitive to others when they do not know the situation.  Fertility issues affect millions of couples out there...30% is female related...30% is male related and 40% is just flat out unknown as to why...